Day 310 - a new perspective

I feel convicted by how I have been following God. Or no following Him. My life was dedicated to serving Him when I became a Christian but have I really sought after His will? Do I always ask and seek what He would have me do instead of what I want or think I need? As a follower, do I love others more than myself? Am I Willing to give up my family when He asks me to? To give up my comfort? To give up control? What does this look like practically? Daily? Hourly? How can I follow The Lord o f the earth and be His servant instead of the world's, or better yet, myself? Ugh! I am scum! Thank you Jesus for my life an saving my soul ! Without you, who else is there?